Its been a while since I've posted a blog and the reason is simple. Its not because I've been busy, its not because I forgot. Its because I couldn't give advice and rant about being healthy when I haven't been. I haven't been taking care of myself the way I need to. I haven't been healthy like I tell everyone to be. I've been over training and over induldging and then I train more to compensate. There is a fine line you skirt when you workout like I do. I love running, I love hittting the gym but that too can become an addiction. But my bordering exercise addiction is only half of my confession. Lately I haven't been happy. You can only see clarity about unhappiness when you finally become happy. I've been dealing with personal stuff and when I'm hurt or sad I tend to over train. When I was over weight I would over eat but now I punish my brain and heart for my feelings by running 30 some miles a week.
So I'm trying something new. I'm starting over. I feel like for so long my training and exercising has been the center of my life. I want it to be fun again. So I'm taking a break. I'm giving myself 7 days to be lazy, to go out, to have fun with my friends and try new things. Its time for a reality check. I'm not going haywire on my diet. I'm still sticking to my regular plan, calorie counting and all but my body needs rest. When you over train you become exhausted, you're more prone to injury and you eat too much because you need to replenish the calories you've burned. I'm going to hit the refresh button and remember that this is my one and only life and I need to do more than obsess about my body.
I hope you guys forgive me for being human. I'm flawed but maybe you can learn from my mistakes. I'm trying to. Everyone have a safe and happy Halloween weekend!
Love,
A.
